The Job Season

Then Job answered the Lord and said,
“Behold, I am insignificant; what can I reply to You?
I lay my hand on my mouth.
“Once I have spoken, and I will not answer;
Even twice, and I will add nothing more.
— Job 40:3-5

Theatrical seasons can be crafted with or without a theme. In God’s wisdom, Players of the Stage’s 2014–2015 season has become the Job Season.

 In October one of our POTS families lost their eighteen-month-old baby. A month later I seriously injured my hand. A week and a half ago one of the POTS Moms committed suicide. All of these events impacted our theater and required us to work together in a deeper way: we’ve attended two funerals, made meals for each other, cried together, and upheld each other in prayer.

With all three events, especially the first and the last, the question of “Why” has loomed heavily. No answer has been given. As I have questioned, I remember the cry “all for God’s glory”. The father of the toddler who died proclaimed this refrain often at the baby’s funeral. The faith of the grieving parent encouraged me then, over the past few months while I struggled with the limitations of my healing hand, and this past week as I anguished over the death of my dear friend.

This has been our Job Season. Within a four-month span, a tragedy, a difficulty, and yet another tragedy have been allowed to impact our acting troupe. Like Job, we do not understand why these calamities have occurred. Like Job, I am weary. Like Job, I want to demand an explanation from God. I know that God may not ever show me an answer, and like Job, I must learn that God is enough, despite whatever else I may lack. But what does that look like? I don’t know, but I pray that Jesus will use these tragedies to reveal to me what wholeness in Him really looks like, not in theory, but in ordinary living.

Oh, that You would rend the heavens and come down,
That the mountains might quake at Your presence
— Isaiah 64:1